Sunday, November 30, 2008
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hello again world. Tomorrow Monday. HAIZ. I am feeling the blues already ):
Just played soccer. Dead tired. Dinner was really good though (:
(1 reason to smile for tomorrow :D)
Where's my lovely holidays!
I've come to realise that you know that when sometimes you feel like shit, there's ALWAYS someone out there worse than you. So it's better not to complain (:
I feel like this year passed really too quickly. Like i felt like yesterday i was taking my O'levels. And I really thank God that he answered my prayer before i entered poly. I was hoping for good friends since I never really had this chance in Stgabs. Thank Goodness I have my 11 other crazy whackos :D
My mind has been going through some mental turmoil recently. And it seriously is no one's fault cos its just the worries of life.
WHOOOOOOOTS.
Today church showed a life/testimony of Neville Tan. If you guys don't know who he is, he is this super hardcore gangster that screwed up his youth by going to jail lots of times but there was once in jail that he read a gospel of luke. Initially he didn't believe, but slowly with the help of his memory and burning desire to answer life's question, he changed his life completely.
I know that sometimes that when you've been emotionally scarred, you feel as if there is no God in this whole. And even if he does exist, why would he be letting you go through so much suffering. I myself am struggling with it most of time, but I guess it all boils down to perspective.
You feel like there was no one for you before, and you wish you could cry out your worries & sorrows to someone but that "someone" never even existed. Since you've been alone most of your time, you feel better that way now. It really can be heart-breaking when you know that no one has ever shed tears of concern for you or be that "someone".
Your past memory has taught you only one thing. Which is to rely on yourself, cos in this world life is unfair. And when times get tough, your so-called friends abandon you to struggle by yourself. Pride & Independence has built up in your life for so long.
But really, what can you lose by just believing once? There really is not much harm. Why not try (:
Why can't you see that life is really not that bad afterall.
tell me when you come back. 9:34 PM
