Friday, July 25, 2008
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hahaha something I collated for the 12 of us. Sorry Junshen, I didn't manage to find a photo of you sleeping :X
tell me when you come back. 10:47 PM
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yay my lappy is up and running again! thanks to norton anti-virus (:
sometimes it's the small things like that I'm thankful for hahaha.
On a happier note, F&B test yesterday was okay, I know i'm gonna pass but i doubt i would get an A cos like I so careless :X I need GPA of 3.5 per semester in order to get my scholarship! COME ON CLEMENT :D
My parents are out of town. Probably enjoying themselves in taipei now. Shopping, eating, walking they're past time favourites. Looks like I have to take care of the house now. Next man of the HOUSE HEEEE :D
Which is making me worried cos I don't see my sister at home right now and it's about 10.42pm. Not really safe for a girl to be wandering the streets at this time. Where could she be. My grandmother is like calling every hour to check on us since my parents aren't at home hahahaha.
yay 13 august seems so near! it's only like 2-3 weeks more.
This is getting out of hand manzzz.
tell me when you come back. 10:40 PM
Tuesday, July 22, 2008
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It's been a while since I posted.
I'm been pissed. Haiz projects, datelines, tests, exams, family. How to cope.
My dad flared up at the 3 of us today cos we didn't wash our dishes. So yeah. Scold here and there. I really wasn't in the mood. I was so tired, physically mentally, had projects to do, datelines to take into consideration and even study for a test on thursday, and yet got screamed at. I'm feeling very down. I'm already so stressed up at school, by the time i come home everyday it's about 10-11. After that I'll have to wash dishes, take out the thrash, lock up and do nothing cos the internet will be offed at 1130. Then I got no time to do projects. I'm screaming inside. I cried when I was in the shower just now. I so badly need some motivation or encouragement from my family but all I get is scoldings and reprimands. Even right now, the tears are dropping on to the floor. You know how it sucks when your days sucks, you stay back really late, you got things to do before the next morning, you're dead tired, your muscles are aching and when you come back, you get this. No internet, no games at all, no more freedom.
I'm gonna explode sometime soon man. I cannot take it any longer. I really can't. I'm been trying to control myself but then the limit has been broken.
They don't understand the pain and hardships I'm going through right now. Let's see I got test on thursday which i haven't even started studying for. Comm Skills test on sat. Intro test next tuesday. project dateline on 30th july. Econs dateline on 6th August. Commskills presentation on 13th august.
Look at this. I don't know how to heck am I gonna tide over this.
So much for family support.
tell me when you come back. 11:04 PM
Wednesday, July 16, 2008
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So here I am again.
I suddenly remembered some uncle telling me this a long long long time ago.
Life is a like a walk in the garden. When you first start out, you see the pretty flowers and you want to pick them. After picking them, you realise there is even more prettier flowers further down the walk. But since you never know how long is the walk, so don't be choosy.
Yeah how true it is man.
You know sometimes I'll always feel like I regret this decision and that decision. But come to think of it. Every decision has a good side and a bad one. This is inevitable to our life.
Last night I was watching this last episode of Korean drama. I nearly cried. A cancer is a kind disease? cos it gives you time to be with your family. Well I beg to differ, I'm the type that likes one shot things. Like one shot drink finish soy sauce bottle or chiong project finish overnight. In this case, I rather the disease be one shot and finish me off. Why dwell on this earth with such suffering unless I've unfinished business.
So guiyao keith and many more found out about my chest, you know my chest grows inward right? hahaha. okay if you do not know. Here's a newsflash.
You know every now and then I would look at other people, and really wonder why can't I be a normal person. Why do I have to be a skinny, pencil-like thing. Why can't I have a normal chest like others. Why can't I grow fat.
Well then I'm not worried at all even if I leave this world early, cos I know my God up there controls my life. I ain't a heck worried or doubt his decisions cos He is perfect. I ain't gonna be some depressed shit who lets a simple defiency drag my life down. Heck NO. Clement Chua isn't that weak man.
You guys might guess by now I've got quite alot of pride heh :D
I want to fall in love with you.
tell me when you come back. 12:31 AM
Tuesday, July 15, 2008
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another day has passed.
Shawn's birthday is tomorrow. Haven't decided what to give him :X
so yeah HAPPY BIRTHDAY SHAWNNIEEEE :D
hahaha. good project mate but too bad he's attached if not he's the first on my gay-list.
bought a new thumbdrive, actually not new cos I was using my mum's one so yeah got my own. 2 GB for 20 bucks (: shiokkkkk.
One thing I would really wanna do now is to go back to Thailand. I miss the pace of life there ):
Projects are freaking killing. I can't take it. 6 August where the heck are you? I make sure i'll make you my fav day next year if you promise to come early (:
Boy i sound like some small childish kid.
I am so wanting to go town. So many things to buy, so little money and time.
You're not sorry at all.
tell me when you come back. 10:31 PM
Sunday, July 13, 2008
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FINALLY. My dad has got a job. I jumped for joy when i heard this. It's been such a long and painful wait. God has perfect timing that he does. I am so thankful that the worriness of my dad not finding a job would be gone.
I haven't been so happy in such a long time (:
Stayed overnight at the airport to chiong projects. Didn't sleep at ALL. was really tired and slept from 8am to about 5.30pm. Yes you guys can say I'm a pig.
I'm gonna tell you that I love you in the best way that I can.
tell me when you come back. 9:52 PM
Wednesday, July 09, 2008
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Haha POM presentation on monday! ;D
Well I didn't know projects could get so out of hand ): so jialat until my group has to camp at the airport on friday night to chiong finish the rest of our projects.
Been neglected Him often cos of this hectic schedule, hope it gets better after all the bloody deadlines get met (:
Darling you will always be my baby.
tell me when you come back. 11:33 PM
Monday, July 07, 2008
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so yeah I've cut my hair. And i don't think the guy did a very good job.
I have to wait another few more months before my lovely hair grow back again ):
okay in another like 7 hours i gonna prepare for my first presentation in poly life! I am both excited and nervous cos i scared i screw up then drag my whole group down.
sometimes when you try and try and try again, it gets really depressing that you keep falling down and crashing to the floor. I'm tired of it. I can't understand this. People change I know, but you change faster then anyone i know of. Sometimes I really don't know whether I'm your friend or some stranger on the bus.
Sick and tired of this pit hole.
tell me when you come back. 12:48 AM
Thursday, July 03, 2008
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There you have it! the photos for this week! (:
I will try to collate the indiv pics to a big picture! ( to the guys that went to watch GETSMART)
And i dream about you all the time.
tell me when you come back. 11:25 PM
