Sunday, November 30, 2008
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hello again world. Tomorrow Monday. HAIZ. I am feeling the blues already ):
Just played soccer. Dead tired. Dinner was really good though (:
(1 reason to smile for tomorrow :D)
Where's my lovely holidays!
I've come to realise that you know that when sometimes you feel like shit, there's ALWAYS someone out there worse than you. So it's better not to complain (:
I feel like this year passed really too quickly. Like i felt like yesterday i was taking my O'levels. And I really thank God that he answered my prayer before i entered poly. I was hoping for good friends since I never really had this chance in Stgabs. Thank Goodness I have my 11 other crazy whackos :D
My mind has been going through some mental turmoil recently. And it seriously is no one's fault cos its just the worries of life.
WHOOOOOOOTS.
Today church showed a life/testimony of Neville Tan. If you guys don't know who he is, he is this super hardcore gangster that screwed up his youth by going to jail lots of times but there was once in jail that he read a gospel of luke. Initially he didn't believe, but slowly with the help of his memory and burning desire to answer life's question, he changed his life completely.
I know that sometimes that when you've been emotionally scarred, you feel as if there is no God in this whole. And even if he does exist, why would he be letting you go through so much suffering. I myself am struggling with it most of time, but I guess it all boils down to perspective.
You feel like there was no one for you before, and you wish you could cry out your worries & sorrows to someone but that "someone" never even existed. Since you've been alone most of your time, you feel better that way now. It really can be heart-breaking when you know that no one has ever shed tears of concern for you or be that "someone".
Your past memory has taught you only one thing. Which is to rely on yourself, cos in this world life is unfair. And when times get tough, your so-called friends abandon you to struggle by yourself. Pride & Independence has built up in your life for so long.
But really, what can you lose by just believing once? There really is not much harm. Why not try (:
Why can't you see that life is really not that bad afterall.
tell me when you come back. 9:34 PM
Tuesday, November 25, 2008
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BCS DOWN (:
TONS MORE TO GO ):
NOT MUCH TIME TO DO SO.
tell me when you come back. 10:51 PM
Monday, November 24, 2008
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10 - 9
Nice way to use your monday heh.
Nobody was there when I needed help.
Nobody was there to wash my wounds and make me feel better.
Nobody was there to comfort me and tell me it's gonna be alright.
Slowly I became that nobody
Cos there was I figured that I could only count on myself
As I am now, I toss my memories aside
Just to find my hands bruised
Another one emerged and claim to be my friend
You come just around the bend
Feeling so down and drained,
tell me when you come back. 2:17 AM
Saturday, November 22, 2008
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Happy Birthday Auntie (:
Although it's quite late but the thought counts :D
Tomorrow i hope will be a sunny day. then at least can tan abit (:
I woke up at 645 this morning. No alarm clock. Really wanted to go and run but couldn't find my shoes ):
Before it gets too late.
tell me when you come back. 2:06 AM
Tuesday, November 18, 2008
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This sem's really screwed up.
BCS - like WTH is it talking about.
CS2 - my teacher freaking kp non stop.
GEOG travel - 100% virtual, means all online.
OB - what the heck another POM-like.
Econs is the only thing that can save me (:
Tomorrow i have a bloody test. And you know what? I am gonna spot (: YAY!
Reminds me of those weekly SS tests.
I miss dad really bad. On a sidenote: I miss you really bad too. I need you back in order to get my life back to track.
You don't know how much you screwed it up.
tell me when you come back. 12:40 AM
Friday, November 14, 2008
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HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ME :D
17th years old. Hmm not too bad. 1 year further from birth (:
Random happenings throughout the week:
1. I dropped my laptop.
2. Ate meatballs at IKEA.
3. My bag is in desperate shap.
4. I tripped and fell into a dirt pit
5. Spent 20 bucks on tibits in the bookshop.
Ogenki desu ka? (:
tell me when you come back. 12:40 AM
Wednesday, November 12, 2008
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it's 2 days away and I still have to do project on that day. Haiz. Well look on the bright side. Wait let me find it first. Guess that maybe birthdays are just another day (:
Granny has been here for 2 days. Really miss her like mad. Glad she's back. Even when she's nagging at me.
On a sidenote, happy freedom to those O'levelers. I know what it feels like (:
Sometimes you feel like you've got nothing to do HAHAHAHAHA.
What did I get back in return? Heartbreak.
tell me when you come back. 11:00 PM
Monday, November 10, 2008
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hahaha so this week was rather good cos I didn't need to go to school on friday :D
tomorrow is the start of another week awwww. Happy Birthday Keith (:
And by the end of next week, comes my 17th birthday. I feel so old :X
Brother has started playing dota and warcraft. I think it's my fault. I shouldn't have brought him along to lan sessions and let him stare at me while playing dota. I know from experience that dota can kill you. Its addiction causes you to do undesirable things. Like play it while lying to your mum that you were going to a friend's house to study. Or secretly stealing money from the drawer to go play lan. It's really not good. And now what hurts me the most is that my brother is following in my footsteps. No matter what I do, he just won't stop. He's just gonna throw away his time to play it. It's breaking my heart.
This is no time to lose my courage.
tell me when you come back. 1:34 AM
Thursday, November 06, 2008
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No it's that you think it is. My other finger got cut off.
Anadee snapped this :X
Don't know what's this.
Funny actions HAHAHAHA.
So today I finished a bowl of bak chor mee before eilis finished eating half of her hot dog bun!
I OWN AND PWNS :D
I own the sky and fly.
tell me when you come back. 11:19 PM
Wednesday, November 05, 2008
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Quantum of Solace. Let's just say you've got to watch the first one to understand it.
Tomorrow until 6 sianzzzz. I need to buy new bag liao. My bag is tearing especially the straps. Must be the heavy weight. JIAYOU INK BAG! :D
These few days have been clear of bad. Just hope I can survive 1 week without him. You know I was just thinking. There is none on earth who totally know me. Even my family. Let's just say that's safe (: Other side of me is not nice to see haha.
My room needs some major cleanning up. It's darn messy.
Girls = complicated life.
No Girls = PEACE! :D
Sorry but the plaster is wearing thin. AGAIN.
tell me when you come back. 9:39 PM
Monday, November 03, 2008
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HAHA another post since I feel like it.
You know i seriously think that getting into a relationship like right now is being really really selfish as you not only hurt the other party but yourself. And getting into one right now is just for fun. No one thinks of it as that far fetched to be marriage.
But....
I need something that can take over girls in life. HMMMMM. Like my very own dog (:
tell me when you come back. 1:00 AM
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BCS assignment was bloody last minute haha. But luckily I managed to submit on time (:
Why the heck is there underwear on my table >.>
Okay i shouldn't be blogging about this :X
CS2 this sem is shit. I mean like what the ____ do they do peer teaching. CS1 was so much more clear and easy to understand.
Claire was so damn inspired by my post! HAHAHA THAT'S NEW YAY!
Helping Kris do the camp drama is tough. I have to be the main lead ):
It's been a while since I've acted. hmmm the last one would be last year december haha.
We'll walk down that summer lane with cherry blosoms in our hands.
tell me when you come back. 12:48 AM
Saturday, November 01, 2008
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Since I've got time, and it's a Saturday early afternoon :D
Cleo went for NCC camp this morning, that means he wouldn't be coming backkkkkk.
Going for drama later. See you.
Was it something I said, or something I never did.
tell me when you come back. 12:26 PM
